Well, it's been almost a year since my last post. I just read the last post and it gave me some great advice. Weird. Like I had an understanding of what I WAS supposed to be doing with my life and then I lost it.
Here I go again. This time I am not feeling nearly as bad as last time but I am feeling a bit down. I am trying to get used to the Idea of uncertainty. It is a weird concept. The Idea that no matter what you think will happen in the future it may change. When you make plan they are just loose guidelines. In a period as short as 6 months you can go from having the best time in your life to wondering what happened. In that amount of time you can go from being a happy and healthy individual to a slightly confused and bummed out wreak.
I am the type of person who looks at every angle of something and tries to make a decision that will cover ever outcome. When you are trying to do that with things as organic as relationships it never works the way you want. The hardest thing to do is to step back and NOT try to cover your bases. No amount of tactical planning can prepare you for human interaction. Ask George W about his plan to democratise Iraq. It never works.
So what will you do? That is the only thing you can control. Stop making decisions with the intent control the outcome. Make decisions with the intent to get what you want. Decide your plan of action to help yourself.
Think about YOU.